Heart & Soul

Random post about anything~

Whoa! Finally back to blogging! It's been so damn long since I came back to this place @@. Kinda miss it already~ Now, I'm in my second semester of my Beta year. Sigh, things are getting more difficult each day. Especially the studies now! I'm so freaking tired and fed up about Uni life now, it's isn't that JOLLY people used to describe. In university, you cant just experience so many bad things in your daily life.

Studies are so hard to understand, but maybe it's just because I don't really pay attention in class though LOL! Just finished my mid-term exams this night. Was kinda relieved all the mid-terms are done, but then, I bet the result isn't that good either. Got to tell myself no more fooling around anymore. Especially when I get the feeling in Uni, the friends around us are fake. They could be so good to you when they need you, but when they don't need you, they ditch you aside.

To be honest, i really miss the secondary life I had, although no girls in class. But still, almost everyday was fun with my own pals. The life was so much simpler than this complicated atmosphere that I'm now having. In the past, all I need to do is go to school, have fun and enjoy myself. Friends are called friends at that time. Now, I can say that most of the friends we make now are tools for us to succeed something. I don't like this, just when I thought I could really find real friends in Uni. Some of them turn their back on me. Well, so be it. I guess real friends can't be find anymore.

Luckily, I still have secondary friends to be with, and my gf off course. Being with them feels much more safer, less worries, more laughter.... Hope that they won't betray me or turn their back on me just like the friends I'm having now. I just wish to keep these real friends and not losing them. Friends are really hard to get, real friends are.

I can say that I do hate when people try to ignore me in some way or another. I rather you tell me off and yell and quarrel than ignore. Ignorance is something I deeply hate it, I wonder who likes that. Or should I say, ignorance should not be treated to friends. To enemies yeah, I can accept, but friends? WHY?! Why be friends at the 1st place if you want to ignore them? Fuck logic?!

Bah!~ seriously FML. I don't understand what is life really is. Everyday repetitive things happen like waking up> go to school> go back> sleep>repeats. Life sucks really. Don't really enjoy being alive. But God gave us life, so, have to live =.='''

Out of words already~

Chiao~

~Adam~


It was the day that our Management group have to interview someone, a General Manager from Straits Meridian Hotel. We arrived there about 11 a.m. and we waited for the GM for about one hour because he has a meeting going on.

After one hour, which is approximately 12 p.m. The GM came out and greeted us and also invited us to the cafeteria of the hotel. The environment is not bad for a 3-star hotel. Really, I didn't think it was that good. The GM's name was Simon Buenaventura. He was a Eurasian or Serani or Portuguese guy. He was extremely friendly and he changed my view upon the Eurasian guys.

Our Management Group, I look fat =.=
We took turns on asking different kinds of questions on how he manages the hotel, the history and stuff. Questions that we needed to accomplish our assignment. Off course, Mr. Simon here, gave us splendid answers. I love the way he speaks, firm, and friendly. During the interview, we also get to know some knowledge about hotel management, recruiting employees and stuff. Things that you wouldn't get from the text books and slides. It's the experience that's matter.

I liked some of his quotes " 99% Confidence might bring to 100% failure, that 1 particular percent can bring you down", "3F's Firm, Friendly and Fruitful" and a few more that I didn't remembered well. Might put up when I remember it.

The employees are fans of Manchester United, they hold competitions regularly.
While interviewing him, there's a couple of phone calls calling him. What I can learn from him is the way he rejected the calls or some kind of put on hold with the person calling, so that he can continue our interview session. I like this kind of attitude because Mr. Simon treat us as also adults which he respect us, he pays attention to our questions and answers it properly. Not like some people would might think we are just college students, so they wouldn't give their time to us and neglect us all the way.

Our Management Group with Mr. Simon

After the interview session, he asks us whether we needed pictures or other information about the hotel. I was thinking, he knows what we wants! Well, that's what we expect from a GM. We took pictures with Mr. Simon and the surroundings of the hotel. He also invited us to feel free to walk around the hotel but he didn't bring us because he had another meeting to attend. Busy man >.>
Jonathan- the receptionist

Seriously did you read all what have I wrote? Guess not. Even I tired I also listen. Just for one time, that 判我死刑, just because you keep repeating your words. Not a robot your talking too okay. and did you listen to listen to today's  management lecture? Men doesn't like long detailed things. We tend to lose our attention when you go like this, this is why sometime you said you think I'm not listening, it's not my fault or yours, we are born just like that. So? If this continue, outcome will be the same. THATS WHY I TOLD YOU TO WATCH THE DAMN VIDEO! I guess you forgot it already, as so much things too that I told~

你说过凡事都要替对方想想,顾虑下对方的感受
但你有吗???

See, forgot again. Look yourself again please. Look back in the past. Just look back


虽然我是很随便
样样都顺从你.....
样样都迁就你.....

Ok Like I haven't? Gives me the chills when you says this. Like I'm forcing you to be with me?


但我不想你因为我那么的随便,
那么的心软,
那么的软弱,
你就趁须而入......
得寸进尺.......



This line, you should know best. Thanks for seeing me like this. Enough said


从开始到现在我对你的心还是一样的
It means, still the same? Then thank you, all I've done till now result the same. 


酱大声和我说话,
Differentiate between the way I talk, I just got fed up a little, and you think I've shouted at you. Then what your doing?


连一句对不起都不能讲....
好像你完全没有错酱....



Not I don't want, is I don't think you want just a sorry that simple.


我静静好过我说话...
You know this is my 死穴, you still want to it. Add oil to fire? on purpose?




我觉得在你心里...
我是那个最不配你的吧.....
是那个最没有用的吧....
是那个每次弄你最痛心的吧....
所以我这种女孩没人要也是应该的吧.....

Really? You think I like this think? I swear I never think of this before. Never came cross to my mind. Maybe it's the meaning of me to you your explaining aye?


给了自己打了两个巴掌,
Once again, repeated. My words like wind. Blow. Nothing dy, can throw


你真的很不幸啦
找到一个这样的女孩......
这女孩对你一点好都没......
只懂得把你拉到谷底,
弄你伤心,失望, 难过~
不配吧....
找错了对象......

Enough can or not? If like that, whats the meaning to be together. If you want to say like that. These things never came cross my mind.

Sigh, seriously, it doesn't have to be like this. I just high pitch a little, that s just because it's late and I'm tired, then you keep repeating there. Any normal person also will get fed up right? I guess you should know me by now. But it seems, you don't.

Morning, yea as usual you called me. Happily pick up the phone, was gonna listen your voice but end up? Screw it! WHY IN THE HELL TALK AGAIN LAST NIGHT THINGS!? Good mood also turn bad mood. ZzzZzz, keep telling myself never mind it's ok. But then whole day, keep doing the things I hate most. Purposely? You want like this can, I silent the whole time then. If that is how you want to treat me.

I've been observing whole day you know. WHOLE DAY! I think my words are been thrown to the landfill. I never shouted at you. You shouted at me. Keep asking me will I leave you. You leave me alone without telling me anything. Haha, I told myself at that particular moment. Am I still worth it? Or maybe just 给你玩够了?

I don't think one word sorry is enough for you. Doesn't seem enough. Because, one particular small thing, just a little high pitch can make you mad like this. Don't know why. I'm just tired at that time. Am I wrong?

When I think about the past, it seems kinda funny though. When we just started, I devoted almost everything, but, the comeback was, you didn't gave a damn, telling me your are like this like that, because past relationship and stuff. OK, then I get over it and found a way to deal with it. Which is, not to be that affectionate anymore, and I told you before, don't regret it. DON'T. Now this is what you want. What am I now is what you want, what you ask. I just react to the situation. I did told you, people can get tired, with the same things keep happening. Repeat and repeat. Don't let me tired please.

If you want my sorry. ok, Here am I sorry, for being a little high pitch. If thats what you want. And also, almost everything you asked me to do I basically done it. You don't want me to FB, done, I came to blog. And if you want me to fuck off okay. I'll fuck off when your ready. Thanks for being so polite. Really~

Phew! Another long time no blog post, haha. Argh! Damn busy with midterm this few weeks. Couldn't really do anything except for study study study and study. Like I promised to my babe, to study hard. The 1st midterm exam was Microeconomics, it was quite easy on that paper, since the questions ask on structure; the answer can be found in MCQ. Another thing was that since we were in Bachelor in Accounting (HONS), they told us there was no MCQ for our whole entire program but then, then lecturer that is from Egypt made MCQ questions for us on this particular mid term. Maybe because he just flew back from Egypt and didn't have enough time to prepare the questions. The main thing is when the students notice paper have MCQ questions before entering the examination venue, they go crazy and shouting:" Got MCQ QUESTIONS LEH!!!!! See I TOLD YOU GOT MIRACLE HAPPEN DE!!!!" Ok, duh~~~ is it exaggerating enough? MCQ only k? Not a big deal.

Well then, back to topic, the second exam is the Quantitative Analysis paper, which was also quite easy for us. The night before this paper, me and my babe keep practicing the questions on Quantitative Analysis. Thank god, for the hard work, it paid off quite well although we don't know the result yet, but I got a hunch saying that it will be good marks. Was quite happy too because in the past I hated maths so much that not even a single paper I can fully answer and now, I done it all. With almost correct answer i suppose.

All good things come to an end, Accounting exam, not really bad at all though, but still not satisfied. Just because I didn't have enough time to finish it. We studied our ass off on this particular subject, me doing past-year questions, nearly pissed off on doing the past-year questions. In the end, what came out on the exam didn't really match. When I got the paper, I browse through the questions, thinking it was quite easy, but then, doesn't seem as easy as it does. So, I actually discounted 10 marks per 100 for that paper for not having enough time to finish it.

This night, our last midterm paper, Management. I was quite confident about this subject because I listen the most or pay the most attention to this subject during lecture or tutorial, I even made my own notes to make me understand more easier, which I SELDOM do this kind of things. But perhaps over confident is not good at all. Before the exam, I just merely look through the notes and barely memorise anything from my notes, telling myself it is ok, nothing will go wrong. And then, when the paper comes, *BLANK*, my head goes blank. Nothing I can think about. Well, not really, hehe, I still manage to pull off on this particular subject, paying attention in class does pay off. I manage to do almost every question, mostly hit the main point, just leaving an empty answer on question number 2. I have discounted another 10 marks for management. Gosh, I can do charity already @@

Well, what had pass is the past, nothing can be made, really do hope I can pull it off this degree. I hope I could get 1st class honors, but my minimum target on CGPA is 3.0 at least! Gosh, 2.46 a.m. already! Gonna head to bed, used too much brain this few weeks already. Tomorrow or perhaps today I would say, got to relax for awhile with no books in front of me. Then got to start with assignments and prepare for final. Oh yeah, busy me!

Ciao! Sayonara!

~Adam~

Ahh!~ Long time no blog already, I guess it's been few weeks since I touch this page of mine. Lately, again, busy, busy and BUSY!  Got so many things to do!! Life seriously is not easy for me. How I wish I were born rich and let the money do their thing! You can be just amazed what money can do, money can just blind some people eyes and heart.

Guess what? I guess I'm having stress on studies. Yea, I know, I've been laughing those guys that are good students that study frequently. But now, I got the taste of it and it's freaking suck! One of the reason to this is, my babe, I promise her that I would do well on my studies so I couldn't afford to fail this course. Particularly this course is damn hard, as far as I know. Since quite a number of friends told me that how a good student still fail on this course. I wonder is it THAT hard to achieve? My dream isn't to be an accountant, I'm that type who likes to sit down and relax but can earn tons of money. Can I? The future will tell me, just as for now, study, gain experience, see, learn, take up as much as I can so that in the future I could apply it to my life and my career.

I'm still stressing on my relationship, it's better starting from this week compared to last few weeks. I was gonna blog about this stuff past few weeks but it seem I couldn't find the strength to do it. So, now just gonna remember back what have I done or had happen in the past few weeks. Sometimes, I mean sometimes it can be quiet frustrating if you don't get things done the way you want it to be. Staying in a relationship means lots of things, got to learn about each other more, accept their strengths and their weakness as well, might as well help them improve. Not dissing their weakness aside! I hope we can be together forever, because frankly, no one had made me done such commitment to this. Except for you.

Last thing! MONEY!!!! Seriously, I'm broke! and I mean it! B-R-O-K-E. Argh! No money, couldn't do things that I wanted anymore, less outing, less dating, everything less less less less. Lucky that I had started studying which resorts to less outing. Just realize that money is so damn small. How nice to use it but how hard it is to earn it. Gotta start save from now on, if not, gonna regret it when I get out from university life. As a Chinese saying 现苦后甜。 By the way, anyone can recommend me how to get quick cash? or at least earn steady money :D

Last week, something happened, my dad came to know that I smoke. Mainly because I was careless, I smoke in the house. I guess I leave evidence behind so that when my dad came back he saw it. He was furious and of course, I got scolded but to my surprise, it wasn't that bad as it seems. My parents didn't restrict me this and that and still talk to me like none of this had happen. I'm relief about that. I'm not worrying about this matter, because I was gonna start cutting down on smoking already as I promised to my babe.

Blur~ Long time didn't blog already, don't know what to type anymore.

~Adam~

It's funny when you see people around talking bad things about other people but then, the person say she didn't do it. This issue had been around for almost a year. Yeah, you told me about these things and introduce him to me. But well, please do not go around and accuse me that I've told your secrets to anyone. I never do that. All that I've said and joke to them or so called you enemies is what I have seen in Facebook and your notes.

Please girl, your mature enough already, I'm an outsider, all I can see is you keep on saying things about the other girl that you despise so much! I don't know why. Things had passed for almost a year and keep on posting all these things. Don't you know how many people are laughing about this? It's a joke for us also to be honest. Your post are really laughable to us. We are not furious about it if your intention is to make us mad. I'm sorry to say you fail to do it.

From the 1st semester I have already seen your colors. You could smile and talk like best buddies for a long time when you meet up a person in school, then the moment you left the conversation and come back to me, you start to spill out those hatred words that what that person did to you, how you dun like that person etc. I didn't say this out because I respect you and moreover, it doesn't make me better if I say it out.

But since you've been accusing me for this and that, I'll just blurp things out anyway. We are not stupid ok? You called my gf and said sorry to her, but then why you had to talk in that manner? Saying sorry to a person while saying her full name in that kind of tone doesn't seems to be sincere, it shows that you are furious about it and not willingly to say sorry. You've said your saying things about people, but the post that you posted are all directed to them. It's very obvious you know? And when my gf said that her mother is around please do believe her, because her mother is really around and she really want to discuss things with you if her mother was not around. Then again, you accuse people again without any judgement. See how silly you are?

I don't know the things between you guys, but I just comment and saying my opinions based on what I saw, and another thing is, why you have to block us in Facebook? Maybe your scared to see our comments? Don't have the guts to take criticism? If your that innocent like what you have said, it's not necessary to block us. This doing shows that you are afraid of something and your diffident.

The last thing is - I'm sorry that maybe my word are harsh that you couldn't take it. But this is me, I treat everyone the same like this, this is my personality and I won't change it because of this child's play. You could accept it or just ignore it, but I would assume that you would hate it :D because of your personalities. Take the advice is up to you, you might see it as an insult to you, but I sincerely tell you that this is not an insult, it's just a message for you to look up to that those friends of yours wouldn't say to you.

P.S Please grow up, look at our age, don't be that naive and listen to those ''friends'' that have been adding oil onto fire. See things first before you do any decisions. Listen to yourself and not to your ''friends''.

Yours sincerely,

~Adam~

It's been a few days since I wrote my blog, kinda busy this few days since a new semester had set into my life. Been busy at credit transferring my subjects, applying for academic transcript, applying new car sticker and stuffs. I wish I could cope with the studies now, it's no more play time like in foundation's level. I'm in degree now, got to get serious with studies already as I promise my babe that I would.

Last Wednesday, I went to watch X-Men: First Class with my babe. It's a nice movie! We all know that the characters in X-Men have powers and such but in this movie, it shows that how Professor X was been crippled, Magneto turn sides with Professor X and the origins of this two characters. In my opinion, I'll rate this movie 8/10.


Recently I also having some severe headaches! Don't know what has happened to me. It has been continuing for 3 days now. Even now I am typing here I am having headaches. Seriously! When it's going to get off. I've been sleeping like a log today just to skip the pain from headaches! Hope it will go off soon!

I don't know what had happen to us, she suddenly became very insecure and emotional these days, especially today. I really don't want to see you like this my dear. I hope everything will be alright. I'm very touch when you find me at Heng Ann just to pass me that herbal tea you bought. I really like it! Thank you my babe. Love you always!

Kinda short for this blog. Headache. Ready to go, Ciao~

~Adam~

All I ever wanted is be your everything. Seriously, was damn hurting last night that you told me that I'm not the one that means everything to you. There is something else is more important than me. I'm really really hurt, even now, when I think of it, it feels like a knife stabbing into my heart!

Well, I guess I'm just plain stupid and selfish. But all I wanted is you. Maybe you have different conception. I don't know. I just can say I'm being inconsiderate when it comes to this kind of things. Love is selfish and I am selfish I admit it.

I keep telling myself not to think about it, not to care about this, but I couldn't accept the fact. I wanted to be your everything. You asked me to give you time, I'll give, but in time to come, if the answer is the one I wanted. It wouldn't be that 100% true. It might be just another thing to comfort me. Your intentions are good, but it doesn't please me that way. As I early said it prefer the truth!~

I'm not a good boyfriend at all. I admit this. I couldn't do anything to make your family please. I'm not rich, not good looking, not even intelligent. Maybe I'm destined to be like that. Even those past relationships I had, I've been fooled over and over again. This time, it's better the way I see it, but the pain it's far more worse than last time. Because I really do really love this girl, I can do anything just for you.

I despise the attitude of your family not because how they said me or anything about me. It's the way they treated you. You have a mind of your own, and you should act for your own not them. Past few days you said you will do your things for yourself and not to care that much about what they said, I was glad you you had think through it already, but then, from what I saw recently, it's not the way. You still hang on to their guide lines, everything they had said. But I got no right to judge them and you. After all, you have been staying with them for so long, and me? like at most 1 year? Logically thinking I also couldn't compare to them right? Plus, your relationship bond with your family is stronger than mine.

I don't mean anything, I just wanted to express it all out at here at my blog. I've been not wanting to blog these few days because of the depressed feeling I get these few days. But this is the only place I could say out my feelings, I couldn't tell anyone so blogging is the only option I have. To be honest, I've been not telling this, I have cried a few times just for you. I'm not as tough as you can see it. I'm weak as hell in a relationship.

I don't want to lose you.

I accept your flaws. I don't mind how not good looking you are compare to others, I just plainly love you.

I don't care what your family got to say what about me because they are not the one I gonna marry. It's you are the one I'm gonna marry.

Sorry for everything that could have hurt you. Sorry to your family that your daughter is in a lousy man's hands. Sorry!

I just wanted to be your everything.

~Adam~

Yesterday morning woke up and fetched my brother and sister for breakfast. They was shocked and in disbelief that I would bring them to have a meal because since I get my driving license, I guess this is the 1st time doing it. I couldn't believe it myself either xD. Went to petrol station first to refill was gas tank while thinking where to eat. After filling up the gas tank, we decided to eat at Malim Jaya's Taiwan Noodles. The noodle there still couldn't compare to Kampung Lapan's standard of Taiwan Noodles.

Fetched them back home and called Gary to lim teh with me around 12p.m. We met at a mamak neear MMU. Chit-chatted awhile and then go to his working place. Fool around at his place just to wait for the time to pass. Am so damn waiting for 2p.m. to reach at that time because I could go to meet my babe!

1.50p.m. I couldn't stay any longer and I say my goodbyes to Gary and Wei Pen and then went off to Jusco alone. I was wishing I could fetch her as a bf, and I don't mind fetching her friends. But since she says don't need, then don't need lo. Was a little disappointed though. Never mind, as long as I could see her it's fine. While finding parking in Jusco, my babe called my telling me that she reached already and is waiting at Jusco's A gate. I off course rush to meet her at there.

Was so so so happy just to see her again, wrap my arm around her, hold her hands again! I miss her so so much! Not forgetting to mention I met her few friends which were Shahira, Melvin and Zeus or whatever the name is. They have been planning to go out since Melvin had came back from Kedah. So, it's kinda like their reunion or something. But I couldn't resist going out with my babe so I just tag along :P


We went to watch Insidious. It's a horror movie. Well, I wouldn't tell the details of the movie because I'm lazy to describe it. I just can say it's a quite not bad movie. You could be scared easily but most of them are expected, so it doesn't scared me that much. Inside the cinema, I was delighted that my babe would hug me because of the scaredness. It shows that I am reliable :P. Shahira's hair was a mess after watching the movie. While watching the movie, those guys or girls behind us are so not like watching horror movies, they are all playing and scaring each other with their voices.



One thing I noticed in the movie is that the red face ghost, which is the most dangerous or the most fearsome ghost in the movie looks like Darth Maul in Star Wars!! Which made me feel funny XD and when I get out from the cinema, I seriously feel more cold than being scared! because the air cond is so damn freezing in there!
Ghost or Darth Maul???


We went for a walk after the movies, I was so stupid I blurted some of the words out and made my babe unhappy!~ I'm sorry for that babe. But this is me, I'm a person that wouldn't think that what his gonna says, but what he says forgets easily. But I'm still sorry my babe! Hope you'll forgive me.

They decided to go Amigo to have their dinner there. I just tag along because I wanna be with my babe longer. I didn't eat because my grandma did cook for me at home so I just might as well eat at home. I could save some $$ too ! After dinner, we all went back home. The heart was feeling so dreadful to be parted with her again. I hate this feeling really!

Another feeling I hate is being 偷偷摸摸 among her parents! I really hate that. I guess one of the reasons she doesn't want me to fetch her is this. I am damn hurt when I heard that. I just want a normal relationship that we can go out as a couple and act as a couple. Can we do that? I just don't know what the elderly thinks. If it were my side of my family I could talk my way out because everyone has a fair chance to talk for themselves. Moreover, my babe really change me a lot. I mean in a good way. Well, couldn't blame her, since young she was suppressed by her family not to talk back! 

I guess nothing much anymore to say today. I'll leave it this way, and am going to spend my day alone again without my babe. People can say ada gf macam tak de gf. Laugh at me.. Ty!

~Adam~  

ZzZzZzZzZzZzZz.... Was sleeping at that time till my sister came in and shouted: " Oi! 10.30a.m. already no need wake up ar?! " I woke up straight away and go to bath. Ate my breakfast after that, pack my badminton accessories and fetch my sister go to her tuition at Semabok.


I didn't use the normal way to go to Semabok that day, I use another way with more turns and alleys. My sister was curious and ask where I wanted to bring her. I joke to her saying that I wanted to kipnap her! But after a half an hour journey, we reach to her tuition center and leave her safely at there. After all, it's my parents task to bring her back home after her tuition.

I called Gary after sending my sister to tuition, telling him I'm going to his house in around 20 minutes or so. So off I go to his house! It's been awhile I've been to his house since his last birthday last year if I'm not wrong. Reached his house and WHOA! so damn lots of cars! Then I came to notice there is a Malay wedding is going on around Gary's house. Well, they are so ignorant and selfish by simply park their cars everywhere without caring other people's convenience. 

Called Gary outside his house and he let me in. Went to his room and then lie on his bed because I was freaking tired! He had on his pc earlier, and then I went to online for awhile while he go to take his shower and praying session. We both went out to get something to eat because Gary didn't ate breakfast. It was about 12-1p.m. at that time. Gary drove his car that day, so I'm the passenger :D. I was acting silly and crazy in the car, singing the songs that been played crazily with the intention to release my loneliness and my tension. At that time, I'm still recovering from what had happened for the past few days! 

Luckily, I still have these brothers to accompany me when I feel down. Especially Gary.~~~ Went to Gary's working area to pick up the ciggs that he left out at there last night and off we go to Mori's Cafe. Ate our lunch there, brunch for Gary haha. Then went back to Gary's place again.

Reached his house again, went in lie on the bed again. Oh ya, I forgot that from early I was sms-ing my babe all the time. I was sad when I see her condition like that. I miss her from the bottom of my heart. I feel so empty without her, it's weird that when someone is always with you and all of a sudden, she's not here. She's somewhere but not near you!~ I hate the feeling that you knowing you can be with her but you can't have her right here right now!

Waited for a few hours in Gary's house for the time to pass till our badminton session time comes. Finally waited till 6p.m. we went to Melaka Raya and ate Herbal Jelly because we both have sore throats that day. After that, went for badminton! After having badminton, my mood became better, maybe because of all the tension have been whack all out through the shuttlecock. Me, Gary, Nick, and other badminton kaki went for dinner at Bukit Cina. Wan Tan Mee. A new place for me to eat. Guess how much it cost for one bowl of Wan Tan Mee at there? RM7 for a medium sized noodles!!! But it's worth it, because the amount of 烧肉 and 叉烧 they put is worth it. I recommend those who read my blogs go have a try :D.

It's time to leave, and then few of us parted. Just left me, Gary and Nick. Nick was going to stay Gary's house that night. So we decided after reaching Gary's house we go lim teh again XD. Lim teh was nice, I feel more relax after our "Muscle Talk" haha. Girls can have their gossip at their "Pillows Talk" so we have our muscle talk. Been sharing stories among each other and how to solve it and such. 

Around 1a.m. I went back home, I was damn missing my babe voice at that time. Speed all the way to my home, quickly shower and sms-ed her. I'm DONE! She called me, and then noticed that she missed me the same way I missed her. MAYBE MORE, because she's all alone in her house, doing nothing but taking care of the kids and tidy up the house. I really wish she doesn't need to have a life like this. At this age, it's not our duty to do this kind of stuff =.= I mean not entirely not to do, just not excessively like her family asked her to! I pity her condition, and feel sad for her. I can tell she's been crying whole day. I hope she can better the next day.

Nothing to say~ I just hope dear, babe, darling, you can be alright! I will always be there for you!

I love you~

~Adam~

It's another boring day during the holidays. Surprisingly, I woke up earlier than my usual time without the assistance of my GF. Stared on the ceiling dunno what to. On my laptop, facebooked, twittered and still nothing to do. Played few matches of Heroes of Newerth, 1 win 1 lose. Got bored, went to download Flyff private server, played it and got bored also~ Games really doesn't interests me anymore.

Got a call from my friend Wei Pen, saying that his gonna fetch me for pool. Waited for him while playing games. He fetched me to Gary's working place, chit-chatted at there for awhile, help him do some stuffs and head to Ixora's snooker center. I played quite well today, maybe it's because of the boredom made me focused more. Could do few trick shots, and win most of the matches with Wei Pen today. Played about 2 hours at there and then head back home.

Texted my GF on the way back home, was quite happy but not for long!~ Was sleepy because of the early waking up and took a nap. Told my babe that I will find her around 9.30p.m. But happy things ends sooner than I thought. I was woke up by my babe, listened her voice that it was kinda weird. Figured out that she cried. Something happened! something bad happened. Her family found out that we were together and she got lectured by them. They saw our pictures that I posted on FB and were furious about it!~ Oh well, what can I do? Got to blame myself for my stupidity and ignorance!~

I promised my babe that I wouldn't make her cry, but then I still did it. Bravo Adam! Bravo! Well Done! How foolish you are!~ I still remember my babe told me that don't too show off. Because things could go haywire~ I didn't heed her advice and now, got to face the consequences! I don't mind me myself facing it, but I don't want her to get lectured by her family and such. It's not her fault! It's my damn bloody fault! Scold me! Not her! Please!

I wanted to make a good impression to her family but end up made a bad impression! How am I going to face them? Sure it's gonna be hard for us~ You guys said that I did not respect her and I really admit it, because I wasn't mature enough to think about this. I am truly sorry! But all I ever intended is that  I want to let other see is how much I love her! So, I really want to tell her family this : '两个人在一起不容易~对不起!我不知道你们会是有这样的想法,是我的错,请不要怪在她身上!' ~

I want to get her family's blessings and approval for us to be together because I really do love her. I'm
not just some other guy who wants to mess around with others feelings and having puppy love. I am god damn serious about this matter. No matter what you guys said, I still love her, and once again please don't blame her. Put the blame on me please. It's not her fault. One day I would proof it to you guys that I really am serious in this relationship. I know you guys are just worried about your cousin/daughter. But could you have some confidence in your daughter's selection? I might be not good in studies, not rich, not handsome, sometimes stupid but I can guarantee that your daughter is in safe hands. I just want us to be happy. To be honest, you daughter/cousin had change my personality a lot since we were together. I became more hardworking on studies, more matured thinking, less doing stuff that is not good for health. I am grateful that I found myself a good girlfriend and I hope we could last forever. 

I know that I am not good enough for her. I will try my best to make it the best guy for her. I give you my word for it! I'm not like the previous guy that is playing her feelings! I AM DEAD SERIOUS! Believe it or not!~ It's up to you guys~ 

Got frustrated now and nothing to write anymore, so I'll put a full stop here.

Hope you guys understand! No harsh feelings! Just expressing out! Wish we can meet up and settle this matter!

~Adam~


It's another boring day during the holidays. Surprisingly, I woke up earlier than my usual time without the assistance of my GF. Stared on the ceiling dunno what to. On my laptop, facebooked, twittered and still nothing to do. Played few matches of Heroes of Newerth, 1 win 1 lose. Got bored, went to download Flyff private server, played it and got bored also~ Games really doesn't interests me anymore.

Got a call from my friend Wei Pen, saying that his gonna fetch me for pool. Waited for him while playing games. He fetched me to Gary's working place, chit-chatted at there for awhile, help him do some stuffs and head to Ixora's snooker center. I played quite well today, maybe it's because of the boredom made me focused more. Could do few trick shots, and win most of the matches with Wei Pen today. Played about 2 hours at there and then head back home.

Texted my GF on the way back home, was quite happy but not for long!~ Was sleepy because of the early waking up and took a nap. Told my babe that I will find her around 9.30p.m. But happy things ends sooner than I thought. I was woke up by my babe, listened her voice that it was kinda weird. Figured out that she cried. Something happened! something bad happened. Her family found out that we were together and she got lectured by them. They saw our pictures that I posted on FB and were furious about it!~ Oh well, what can I do? Got to blame myself for my stupidity and ignorance!~

I promised my babe that I wouldn't make her cry, but then I still did it. Bravo Adam! Bravo! Well Done! How foolish you are!~ I still remember my babe told me that don't too show off. Because things could go haywire~ I didn't heed her advice and now, got to face the consequences! I don't mind me myself facing it, but I don't want her to get lectured by her family and such. It's not her fault! It's my damn bloody fault! Scold me! Not her! Please!

I wanted to make a good impression to her family but end up made a bad impression! How am I going to face them? Sure it's gonna be hard for us~ I really want to tell her family this : '两个人在一起不容易~对不起!我不知道你们会是有这样的想法,是我的错,请不要怪在她身上!' ~

I want to get her family's blessings and approval for us to be together because I really do love her. I'm
not just some other guy who wants to mess around with others feelings and having puppy love. I am god damn serious about this matter. No matter what you guys said, I still love her, and once again please don't blame her. Put the blame on me please. It's not her fault. One day I would proof it to you guys that I really am serious in this relationship. I know you guys are just worried about your cousin/daughter. But could you have some confidence in your daughter's selection? I might be not good in studies, not rich, not handsome, sometimes stupid but I can guarantee that your daughter is in safe hands. I just want us to be happy. To be honest, you daughter/cousin had change my personality a lot since we were together. I became more hardworking on studies, more matured thinking, less doing stuff that is not good for health. I am grateful that I found myself a good girlfriend and I hope we could last forever. 

I know that I am not good enough for her. I will try my best to make it the best guy for her. I give you my word for it! I'm not like the previous guy that is playing her feelings! I AM DEAD SERIOUS! Believe it or not!~ It's up to you guys~ 

Got frustrated now and nothing to write anymore, so I'll put a full stop here.

Hope you guys understand! No harsh feelings! Just expressing out! Wish we can meet up and settle this matter!

~Adam~


A hot morning today it is!~ Been woke up by my babe as usual, groomed up and went to fetch her around 10.30 a.m. Went to Melaka Raya to eat roti canai. The place is located near Station One. This stall that sells roti canai is the best I ever eaten! Well so far in Malacca I couldn't find a substitute for it. After finishing our breakfast, we went to MP to have our car park there because it's the cheapest parking around the area if you want to park for few hours straight. Hatten Square is a good choice for parking but for some reason I hate that place already!~

We walk our way to Carrefour's GSC to meet up my friend, Wei Pen and his GF, because he has the ticket to our movie, "Fast and Furious 5".


Below will be the movie trailer for Fast 5 if any of you guys haven't see it! It's a nice action-pack movie. But it doesn't meet up my expectation because it has little racing scenes. I believe the movie is also over-rated as well. But still the movie is interesting! Go watch it if you haven't!




During the movie, inside the cinema, the cinema is god-damn cold! Even me with that much of fats feel cold!~ I got to hug my babe whole time during the movie!~ After the movie, stomach begin to growl, haha! Wei Pen wants to have lunch at McDonalds, but me and my babe have so many visits to McDonalds since the day we were together, so we decided not to follow them and went by ourselves.
Later we decided to go Wong Kok to eat~ They have a set lunch there, not bad actually the food there, and it quites worth it to eat there. A little bit pricy though.

Asked for the bill upon eating finish, and don't know what to do next. We were so full at that time, and kinda sleepy. haha! Tried to find my babe's friend and also my friend or class mate, Ivy, which is now working at Nadeje. Somehow we did not find her maybe because she is on lunch break. So we just continue our walking around DP, Carrefour and MP. Walking for awhile, decided to go Gary's working place. But who knows, the shop isn't open because of something happened.

My babe said since no where to go, we might as well go back home. I agreed and then fetch her back home with a sour look on my face. I was over exaggerating it but I was really sad to leave her again. Plus, this time we couldn't meet up a few days time. She has to stay at home and she has her things to do. I have to give her freedom too, couldn't tie her all up just for me! Would be just too selfish XD

These few days been crazy bout "Angry Birds" song and sound tracks haha! Even while lim teh with my buddies, we keep joking about this topic!~ 



 Download this mp3 from Beemp3.com

 And now I crazy about the Snow White songs, especially Heigh-Ho, sang by the 7-Drwafs! haha! Its so nice and funny about the song!~ XD
Lyrics | - Heigh-Ho lyrics
No idea what to write anymore, so I'm gonna stop!~

~Adam~

Morning didn't sleep enough already got a call from my dad, saying that he left his check on the table, didn't bring to his office. Told me to bring it to his office. I was gonna sleep back and bring it to him later since it's not that urgent. But later about 20 minutes later, my dad called back and say come to him immediately because he is suffocating. He could't breathe right and his hands and legs are keep sweating, he told me it was the symptoms of heart attack.

I quickly bath and rush to his office to pick him up to go to General Hospital for a emergency check up while forgetting the check and left it in the house!~ Luckily the check was not that urgent. Rushed to his office and see him wasn't that ok and quickly rushed him to GH. Left him in the emergency ward and find parking. GH has so many visitors at the time I went, I couldn't find any parking available for me, until my dad ask me to go back home to pick up the check that I left out in my house. So, I went back home.

On the way back home, I called my babe saying that after picking up my check I will go and fetch her since today we had plan to go out anyway. My babe was worried about seeing my dad. I told her not to worry, since one day he will find out we are together!~ After picking the check, went to pick her. I was so delighted to see her again because I've been missing her for hours! She's like a drug to me XD. Me and her went to the hospital, found out that my dad was ok. Dad told me it's not heart attack, it's just that the gastric has gone up to the heart level till makes him hard to breathe thats all!

Went to lunch after the check up, it was kinda awkward having my dad around with my babe. We got to pretend like we're not couples. In the car, I keep reminding myself not to call "bi" to my babe. Haha! While having lunch, it was quite funny that my dad telling jokes and stuff to us! Glad that my dad doesn't seem to have a bad impression on my babe. Although I have confidence in her!

After having lunch, my dad went back to work and me and my babe go for dating! We walk around MP and DP, almost have nothing to do! Just walk walk walk and WALK! Was quite boring but I'm satisfied enough because I am with her~She seem a little bit weird today,maybe she is having mood swings through her late coming of period and I sure do hope so it's not the thing!~ Was kinda worried though for her~ After around 5p.m. we went back home.

I'm sorry for her I couldn't accompany her throughout the next few hours! She seem so moody!~ I tried to comfort her but couldn't change a thing. Left her to cool down herself for I fear that if the more I talk the more moody she is!~ I hope the next day she is back to herself again. Me and my babe have almost the same personalities, which is scared of being lonely. For me, I could call my brothers out for tea session, but for her, she couldn't go out that frequently and that late because of her family and she is a girl off course~ I don't blame her for that. I just want to be her side every hour, every minute or even every second!

She's been asleep since I left her to cool down. Which is a good thing so she could relax and not think of any other thing and being bored by herself. She hates holidays because she couldn't do anything at home. Even though we are hanging out, we couldn't do much, since we are still young and we have money issues. Couldn't spent that much. I feel sorry for her being with me that I couldn't treat her good food when she's hungry and such!~ I promise when I work and have good payroll I will bring her to places to eat and have a nice day!

But seriously I do miss her voice now. Its 2.24 a.m. now. Normally we will have phone conversation till this time from 12 a.m. Its weird not having a conversation this night, and beginning to feel a little bit lonely myself. But it's alright, her condition it's more important than mine and I don't to wake her up from her sleep. So, I decided to blog here XD.



Not much to write anymore. Gonna end it here. Chiao Fellas!

p.s : Babe Celine!~ I love you!~

~Adam~

Yesterday was quite boring, woke up at around 1p.m. and got nothing to do throughout the day. Just plain sitting in front of my laptop staring at it whole day while waiting for my babe to finish her stuff and call me. Time passes during the time she called me, I went for a little nap and woke up to prepare myself to attend a wedding dinner. ~BORING~ Family's wedding dinner is always dinner, I dunno bout other people, for me IT IS BORING, because I'm not familiar with my relatives and such, got nothing to talk with them.

After grooming up and such. my dad let me drive my Mum's car, Toyota Vios. Haha, my dad sat at the behind sit while I'm driving. I asked him why he said: " I sit in front you later got pressure right?" Well, off course a little, your my dad for god's sake XD! But then my Mum teased him, "are you trying to imagine something by sitting at the back seat?" ( ask me if you don't get what I mean bout this )

Went to fetch my 2nd uncle, drove to Pay Fong High School [ the dinner is held there ]. We were so early =.= damn. Then, my 2nd uncle start smoking in front of me. I was like " oh shit!, i gotta smoke too!~" But I couldn't because my dad's here. The dinner finally started, I had red wine at the start of it, and then switch to beer. My dad looking at me at disbelief saying that you mix ah?! You later sure drunk de! ZZZZZ off course I didn't get drunk la!~ Dad your son was an alcoholic before le =.= Just that you don't know.

In the middle of the ceremony, the bride and the groom's parents need to go up stage and drink, while having that drinking ceremony, they played the background music of My Heart Will Go On from the movie Titanic. My dad told me, " Stupid choice of song! Yea, I know its romantic song, but a bad ending, they want to end their marriage to be like Titanic ending ar? My dad words are quite true also haha!~

Thats all I guess for the wedding dinner, got nothing more I can recall some more. I'll stop here.

Till next time!~

~Adam~

It's been quite a few days seen I wrote my blog, well nothing really much happen, it;s just that I have finish my finals yesterday. Yesterday English 3 paper was the last paper for us foundation level students. The English paper was quite easy, not that hard as it seems to be and I got no problem doing this paper. So that's it for my Foundation, end of it, bye bye PM03 and 04. Will miss you guys!~ for those I have unintendedly offended you guys, I am truly sorry. Hope you guys will have a better life than I have ^^ In this foundation level, I have experience great memories, no matter sad or happy. Well, holidays is here, but I have no god damn planning for holidays~ Dunno what to do or where to go, any suggestions guys? I might just as well accompany my babe whole day I guess. Luckily for I have a lovely babe~

That morning my dad came in to my room telling me that later at night I have to attend a wedding dinner. So after finishing my exam, I went to old JJ with my babe to date for awhile then rush back home. Just when I open the front door of my house, my dad smile mischievously at me and said: " Sorry ah, I saw the wrong date, it's on Sunday night." =.= I was like wth?! I could have spend more time with my babe, dad you should have sms or call me earlier. Luckily, I still could join badminton with my buddies.

Everything was quite good, I fetch my friend Nick together to go Heng Ann to play badminton while waiting for the others to come, which is Gary and Wei Pen. On the way to Heng Ann, I use the Bukit Cina road. Wah!!! damn jam ar that place!~ Dunno the Singhs people got what celebration or what event, made the whole road almost impassable, wasted so many time there, but after so long I'm still the 1st person who reach the badminton court. Went to ask for the court we are taking and got shock the lady told us only one hour. Not usually we book 2 hours de meh? Then called Wei Pen, he said 1 hour only. OK, nvm, fine, 1 hour 1 hour lo, no big deal.. but then, after 55mins only come.even Gary came earlier than him. pro lo, no need come better =.=. Then went for dinner at RED SQUARE, eat 粿条仔, eat untill RM10 ar!!!!~ I keep feeling poorer each time i go out!~ T.T damn it!  Money ar money, you are damn insufficient for everyone. I effing hate you! But i effing need loads of you!~

Its 3 a.m. in the morning now, and I'm missing my babe so badly, for knowing that tomorrow I might not have the chance to see her in person. Yea, I know is just one effing day, but to me that one day feels like ages. I just couldn't get bored seeing her, meeting her, kissing her, caress her, holding her etc. I feel empty without her. With her being with me I feel completed just like a jigsaw puzzle.

I guess i got nothing more to say. I'll leave it at here.~ Chiao!

~Adam~

This morning woke up damn early just to revise the accounts,

I woke up at around 6 a.m., I woke up because my GF woke me up,
She's the adrenaline to my life, I wouldn't woke up this early if it's not for her
I wouldn't even study for my exams either if it's not for her.

Around 6.45 went to fetch my babe, and around 7a.m I reached her home.
I did feel warm when she took two fererro rocher for me to eat. Even though it's not a big deal.

We went to E-Learning Point at MMU to study for our accounts examination,
luckily, I didn't need to cover much about accounts because I quite understand it.
Accounts is not that hard than it seems to be. Plus, last night I did sufficient exercises on past-year questions. 
I promise my baby I would study hard in Degree level. So that we don't need to struggle during examinations like this time. We would make others envy us and make them wondering how we could get good grades without breaking a sweat!

The accounts examination today was quite okay, not bad for a person who studies at the eleventh hour.
Thanks to my babe, without her maybe my accounts today will be a pile of shit.

I love you!~ Darling Celine!~

Its been quite some time since I write my blog...~
I'm in the library now frustrated about somethings..
these few days couldn't do anything right...~
Maybe it's the cause of examination stress~
I never been like this before, I never stress about examination before, SERIOUSLY
I think it's because of the FEAR(tension) of not getting enough qualification(CGPA) to get into the same course with my darling~
I really want to be with her during next course, hope everything will be alright during this examination~
1 more hour to go till the next exam, and I know nothing about thing subject, couldn't do anything but to put the blame on myself for not studying and not listening during this semester.




我要~你陪我走一生
        ~当我睡觉时,你玩弄我吵我醒来
        ~我们比任何情侣都甜蜜  
        ~你无时无刻的哄我
        ~迁就我的过错
        ~爱你一生一世
        ~你默默地从背后给我一个拥抱   
       

 










It's Auburn
And J.R.

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

Well, had him shooting for me like a ball team
Every guy was a knock out, Don King
But none of 'em had smarts, that's my thing
It's not enough to have balls, Spalding, ha
One day by Starbucks
I bumped into a guy rocking black Chucks
He said "Excuse me, beautiful," I said, "Aww, shucks"
And then he asked, "Well, ay, wanna grab lunch?"

Never ever met a guy so fly
Got me hooked like apple pie, I
Think I'm falling and I don't know why
But I won't fight these butterflies

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

And I swear what we have is just super cool
The way he's always in my head like a Bluetooth
I got a text from him, he said come through
Told me that he wants to kick it, Kung Fu
Don't do nothing much at all
Just we and his boys watching football
He asked for a kiss (Muah) So I gave him two
He said, "Well, thank you, baby," I said, "You're welcome, boo"

Never ever met a guy so fly
Got me hooked like apple pie, I
Think I'm falling and I don't know why
But I won't fight these butterflies

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

No, I don't need no fancy cars
And I don't need no diamond rings
My baby is all I need and more
'Cause I don't need those extra things

It's not about you (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's not about you)
It's not about them (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's not about them)
It's all about me (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's all about me)
And it's all about him (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's all about him)

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Said it's all about him, yeah

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

(Oh-oh-oh-oh) 'Cause I'm all about him
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) 'Cause I'm all about him
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) I'm all about him
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) And we don't give a dang, dang, dang
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) It's all about you
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) It's all about you, boy
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) It's all about you
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) 



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