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"Disguise"



Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Are you waiting for that day when your pain will disappear?
When you know that it's not true what they say about you?
Couldn't care less 'bout the things surrounding you
Ignoring all the voices from my wall

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time
To figure things out
Not telling lies
I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know
What's yet to comeI'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time
To figure things out
Not telling lies
I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know
What's yet to come
Still we don't know
What's yet to come 

Special thanks to someone who intro-ed me this song.. Certainly explains the current me~

Read the lyrics ;D

Everything was fine until this night~

Last nite actually planning was only me and Wei Pen for pool at Sports Bar, because of Wei Pen not satisfied of me winning him in pool. But at last because of our dinner was messed up, we went jonker for dinner with Andrea and Nick~ Jonker Street was hot and we couldnt stand the heat there so we head back to car.
We had no idea where to go so we round and round around Melaka Raya with Wei Pen Proton Wira. Decided to drink at Station 1, played cards and drink~

And today was a mess, the afternoon was great. Movies with Andrea, Dominic, Nick, Ck, and Wei Pen. Watch Ip Man 2, nice movies, basically i like kung fu movies.. those kick ass stunts/style makes me happy XD~ Later, went to bkt cina and have our dinner,  Wan Tan Mee. ZzzZzz things started to get worse, AWKWARD SILENCE. sigh~ Earlier on, i really shouldnt hear what Nick told me. I regretted listen to it, and i meant REALLY REGRET. If i didn listen i wouldnt be this weird during the whole night. Emo~ and keep asking myself is it that obvious? I already did/ tried my best to hide that THING from expressing out, But still... sigh damn it!~

Went to pillow bar,played card, and drinking[drinks that contain slightly alchohol]. not really that fun for me really.. guess it was fun for others but I'm just distracted by the things Nick said earlier on~Fetched Andrea and Nick back~ lol, andrea was high at the moment, keep screaming and knocking at my window when she see some ''leng zai''. Was actually fun to see her go haywire like this. Nick on the other side was drunk, he never drank anything with alchohol before so i guess it must be hard for him~

I tried to keep drinking but i cant get myself drunk.. and now 2 cans of Carlsberg, still no effect.. Sometimes secrets arent meant to share.. things get leaked out easily as peoples mouth slips easily.

I just hope that it still be the same. No negative changes. Be happy with each other while hanging out, thats just what i gonna ask for!~ Really hope nothing will change after things that happen to this HORRIBLE night of mine~ sigh!~

Having a relationship is rather not important. Whats important is, you'll know when somebody is there when you need them~ and happy when together with friends~

These few days were emo-ing and thinking lots of things. I guess having some one attention is so hard that it even might hurt your ownself, I guess i should get over it and get a new life so i wouldnt suffer that much. Loving some one is hard enough for myself to contain when the person doesnt like you... Sigh..

After so much of thoughts, the best thing is still being friends. That way, we couldnt get hurt, and still have fun at all times. Being friends can share so much more things together. Wether we are sad, happy, grief or even angry. We might fight or even quarrel, but still friendship is utterly important. No friendship is just like a man without its wealth.~



Enough bout thoughts already, well today i went out with Wei Pen. We went to watch The Losers. It was quite a nice movie. Nice gun shot act, and storyline, I personally love the Sharp Shooter in the movie. Later on we went to Uncle John to have our dinner, had our PLKN stories popping out during our conversation. Starting to miss PLKN life, at least in PLKN we dont need to worry so many things. Went to Sports Bar for pool after our lovely meal, hehe, I won Wei Pen 6 Matches out of 10~ Was quite satisfied. Have to improve in order to beat my next target: MY DAD. xD



Weee, today was a blast. Before that planning what to do before going out was a pain in the ass =.=, i and andrea keep calling ppl but some damn lan c, call d duwan come out. Make me pek chek nia. Bout 3pm i went to fetch Andrea, den fetch Hon Seong. Watched MV"Haunted Room:Who R U''... zzz not even scary at all~ sian dao, alvis can sleep inside cinema there ar~ the only shocking part is like the last 5mins? Haha, but i shuang dao cos scare dao Andrea when starting the MV.. hehe, lucky she didn drop from the stairs, if not sure sia sui lo..

Went to dinner at Old Town. At there all starting crazy d~ at there, got 1 group of gurls(aunties) sibeh noisy, talk even louder than Nick Ong. Sibeh chia lat .. den got 1 wear the pants so high(above waist) , we all see dao laugh till stomach ache ar!

Pool after dinner, lol, was andrea and nick 1st time. So cacated @@ hehe but overall was fun seeing them play, reminds me of me playing 1st time XD~ Gone to Wings Cafe after that, @@ so ngam me honseong and Andrea ordered the same drink , Honey dew Milk tea . Played cards there, i dunno heng ape luck, get 5 blackjacks in a row, win abit abit la hehe.

The best part was going back home. i was fetching Andrea, Nick and Hon Seong, zzz actually nothing de.. the traffic light was blinking and should be able to pass, den the bongong Hon seong say stop =.= i braked, infront got police sumore . Lucky nothing happen.. chuak me oni they all. Plus, on the bridge accident happened. 6 cars involved, kancil, vios, myvi and i forgot sum of the cars d.. quite serious the dmg done~


Fetched Hon Seong>Andrea>Nick den myself speed way back to home~ Now sleepy and still blogging~ Q.Q

Finally,  a day that is not boring :D. Went out with my old secondary school friends. We went to watch Iron Man 2. Our Comrades consist of Gary Tan, Hon Seong, Alvis, Siong Wai and Wei Pen. Zzz i went to fetch wei pen and then get stupid sits... dunno which of them buy tickets go buy lauya sits for us at the cinema, wan watch cinema MV oso bo kik~ Meanwhile, i so damn jealous in the cinema, almost everyone is a couple there. Sigh, i wan too couple oso le.~ Sad T.T Haha, after watch finish, went to the car park, of course wan go out d la =.=.. hehe i 打轮 at DP car park again lol... become main attraction summore, den i let Gary drive my car, he let me have heart attack oni sia, so slow he brake =.= nearly bang the car ahead of us..make me scare scare LOL

After that, we went pool at Jetty, met up Ah pang there~ so long never see the fella ady, he went to sunway college if i'm not wrong.~ So happy to meet all of them up together. Anyway since pool bores Ah pang, we went to CUETECH(Snooker place) instead, 1st time i've been in there. Walau, there smokers heaven lai de, the smoke so thick at there, and i oso bcome 2nd hand smoker lo =.=~

After sometime, only left Me, Ah Pang, Gary, Wei Pen and 2 of Gary NS fren~ after snooker, we go dinner at Red Square. few block away from windmill, to eat ke tiao kia~ the food was quite nice, and another thing is, i found another place to eat d.. more places to suggest next time ^^~

Everone went back home after that, and it was like 8.30pm. I was like WTF? so early, den i jio wei pen go sports bar play pool. Haha, didn realize my pool improve so much since my dad taught me tips and tricks of pool, i got 5 shots in a row~ @@ amazingly improvement hehe, den 10something i jio Andrea come out limteh but dio reject haha.. mayb tired gua~ XD and we played pool till11 something and now 1 am here blogging crap again~ Thats all...

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